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About Deviant Artist Senior Member Jenny (Romanchuk) AdamsFemale/Canada Recent Activity
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deviation in storage by wylielise
Dateline - "Infatuation"
This is going to be a 2 hour documentary about Flutterby727 

I'm frightened to see this. I don't know if I can. It's so very different to watch a show about someone who you cared about... And its so very different than an accident or 'natural causes'--
I have problems saying the "M" word when speaking about her--its like the words are kind of foreign, clumsy, or they fade in my mouth draining my voice--when I do speak it-- it sounds forced and it feels like an explosion of just the gravity of what that word means just implodes inside my head and all around me--just the whole weight of what happened to her... Shelley was one of the first followers of my comic. She was so supportive-- I would often write and draw the comic thinking about her "wow I can't wait to see what she thinks of this!"-- she would ask questions about how to draw something--or things about writing a silly parody comic of TZH-- But now I'm wracking my brain and struggling to remember and preserve all the little pieces of contact I have had with her-- I haven't deleted any of Shelley's emails--but I'm afraid to read them-- I hope my responses we good-- I can't remember--which upsets me even more--not remembering everything-- I want to believe desperately that I was a good friend or even an acquaintance to her. But I don't know--and probably never will.
I'll have nightmares about it--cruel nightmares where I save her and everything is okay, or ones where she's missing and it's my fault that I can't find her before it's too late. I'm mad at myself for taking her friendship for granted--for not getting to know her better when she was alive--I'm mad at the monster who took her from her mom and dad, her sisters, and the rest of her family--I'm mad at the fact that I feel so helpless and isolated--I know how long you grieve isn't a measurement on how much you loved someone, I know there is no such thing as closure just 'a new normal' but its really hard to stop reading the book of pain so much and put it back on the shelf when you feel like you don't have all the answers-- because the book is just a bunch of blank pages-- of whats, why's, and what-could-have been.
  • Listening to: Walk the Rain by the Sneaker Pimps
  • Reading: Webcomics



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Jasperinity Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
I'm a few days early, but I hope you have a happy birthday! :D
Hello. I am a long time follower of your "Zombie Hunter" comic, and for the sake of not spoiling anything for those who have not read the latest page, I have this to say......I UNDERSTAND YOUR GREIF LADY BUT WHY DID YOU DO THAT?! I look forward to the next pages when all zombie hell breaks loose.
its-ok-to-smile Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013
I would like to compliment you highly on page 543, or as i call it 'the page of beautiful faces'.

p.s. I ship it
ag7071 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey dude can i ask you something?? can i use your idea of the BASILISK zombie for mi comic please??
mattdevil10 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013
hahaha found the artist behind TZH on deviantart by accident. didnt know you were on here. dont know why i didnt know. read your comic front to back so far and love it. oh and to hop on the birthday band wagon. haaaaaaaapppy biiirthday.
legoland99 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2013
OK my , it was your birthday , happy birthday then ,even if it's late :p I must say I love your comic book , I am thinking of buying the first book ,and after that the second if it apeared , your drawing style is amazing bdw ,keep it up ! From Romania :D
Winged-Vayla Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013
I just wanted to wish you a late happy birthday... I just discovered it's the same as mine. Love the Zombie Hunters its absolutely amazing
TheDivineMissM-94 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday Jenny! Hope you have a good one :party:
Krovovsky Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
HAPPY Z-Birthday Jenny, hope there are more to come, A big hug from Chile, hope you are enjoying your day.
Dr-Cryllius Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday!
birthdays Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's June, 27th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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booper101 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student Artist
Cryokina Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday! :D
AnnaMarie2013 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday!!! :party:
ATNAT Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
Happy birthday!
mszafran Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
Happy birthday! :party:
bkf9 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student Interface Designer
Happy Birthday!
Lionheartssj Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! :party::cake:
Helldoggolem Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
Happy B-DAy!!!
NemesisXIII Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Professional
Happy birthday Jenny! :iconcakeplz:
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