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About Deviant Artist Senior Member Jenny (Romanchuk) AdamsFemale/Canada Recent Activity
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deviation in storage by wylielise
Dateline - "Infatuation"
This is going to be a 2 hour documentary about Flutterby727 

I'm frightened to see this. I don't know if I can. It's so very different to watch a show about someone who you cared about... And its so very different than an accident or 'natural causes'--
I have problems saying the "M" word when speaking about her--its like the words are kind of foreign, clumsy, or they fade in my mouth draining my voice--when I do speak it-- it sounds forced and it feels like an explosion of just the gravity of what that word means just implodes inside my head and all around me--just the whole weight of what happened to her... Shelley was one of the first followers of my comic. She was so supportive-- I would often write and draw the comic thinking about her "wow I can't wait to see what she thinks of this!"-- she would ask questions about how to draw something--or things about writing a silly parody comic of TZH-- But now I'm wracking my brain and struggling to remember and preserve all the little pieces of contact I have had with her-- I haven't deleted any of Shelley's emails--but I'm afraid to read them-- I hope my responses we good-- I can't remember--which upsets me even more--not remembering everything-- I want to believe desperately that I was a good friend or even an acquaintance to her. But I don't know--and probably never will.
I'll have nightmares about it--cruel nightmares where I save her and everything is okay, or ones where she's missing and it's my fault that I can't find her before it's too late. I'm mad at myself for taking her friendship for granted--for not getting to know her better when she was alive--I'm mad at the monster who took her from her mom and dad, her sisters, and the rest of her family--I'm mad at the fact that I feel so helpless and isolated--I know how long you grieve isn't a measurement on how much you loved someone, I know there is no such thing as closure just 'a new normal' but its really hard to stop reading the book of pain so much and put it back on the shelf when you feel like you don't have all the answers-- because the book is just a bunch of blank pages-- of whats, why's, and what-could-have been.
  • Listening to: Walk the Rain by the Sneaker Pimps
  • Reading: Webcomics



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HearseGurl Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Dropping by to say Hi and thanks for all you do and being part of the community! :D
SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015   Artisan Crafter
Party Happy Birthday, Jenny!
greensam Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday!
M4IAN Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015
Happy Birthday

rormnsa2gether Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday Dear, Wishing you a wonderful new year full of love & Success
Bonnibel-Bubblegum Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Lionheartssj Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! :party::cake:
Jasperinity Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015
Happy birthday! :D
darknightwolf2010 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake: :party:
birthdays Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:
It's June 27th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!
Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

Birthdays Team 
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Helldoggolem Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015
Happy awesome B-DAy!!! :)
lintu47 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
TheDivineMissM-94 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday Jenny! :ihavecaek: 
Hope you have a good one :happy birthday: 
ScottaHemi Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
found your comic earlier this morning,  I like it :D  cool characters nice story and great artwork! can't wait to read more :D 
M4IAN Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014
I heard about your grandmother. I know how you fell. My condolences. 
Hydraman123 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014
take your time to recover, its never easy. best of luck.
also... :hug sneak hug! 
Mantarok1205 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2014
I saw the announcement about your grandmother, I understand how you feel because all my grandparents are dead.

Here's what you need to do.  You need to continue your comic and create the MOST BADASS CAMEO EVER for your grandmother.  She deserves it, you deserve it, we deserve it.  Show us what an awesome and wonderful person she was by turning her into a flesh-eating zombie hehe.
DeanCota Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My condolences, Jenny.  Sorry to hear about your Grandmother's passing.
Xxkitty-GOES-rawrxX Featured By Owner Edited Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I love reading your comic! :D I love zombies <3 .3. I want to buy your comic ;^;
Raigade Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014
Hello, your photos are beautiful!
are you allow me to use them to illustrate page digital scrapbooking?
I would give you credit of course image. best regards
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