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About Deviant Artist Senior Member Jenny (Romanchuk) AdamsFemale/Canada Recent Activity
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Dateline - "Infatuation"
             
This is going to be a 2 hour documentary about Flutterby727 

I'm frightened to see this. I don't know if I can. It's so very different to watch a show about someone who you cared about... And its so very different than an accident or 'natural causes'--
I have problems saying the "M" word when speaking about her--its like the words are kind of foreign, clumsy, or they fade in my mouth draining my voice--when I do speak it-- it sounds forced and it feels like an explosion of just the gravity of what that word means just implodes inside my head and all around me--just the whole weight of what happened to her... Shelley was one of the first followers of my comic. She was so supportive-- I would often write and draw the comic thinking about her "wow I can't wait to see what she thinks of this!"-- she would ask questions about how to draw something--or things about writing a silly parody comic of TZH-- But now I'm wracking my brain and struggling to remember and preserve all the little pieces of contact I have had with her-- I haven't deleted any of Shelley's emails--but I'm afraid to read them-- I hope my responses we good-- I can't remember--which upsets me even more--not remembering everything-- I want to believe desperately that I was a good friend or even an acquaintance to her. But I don't know--and probably never will.
I'll have nightmares about it--cruel nightmares where I save her and everything is okay, or ones where she's missing and it's my fault that I can't find her before it's too late. I'm mad at myself for taking her friendship for granted--for not getting to know her better when she was alive--I'm mad at the monster who took her from her mom and dad, her sisters, and the rest of her family--I'm mad at the fact that I feel so helpless and isolated--I know how long you grieve isn't a measurement on how much you loved someone, I know there is no such thing as closure just 'a new normal' but its really hard to stop reading the book of pain so much and put it back on the shelf when you feel like you don't have all the answers-- because the book is just a bunch of blank pages-- of whats, why's, and what-could-have been.
  • Listening to: Walk the Rain by the Sneaker Pimps
  • Reading: Webcomics

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lemontea Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2017
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Anisa-Mazaki Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Airborne Trophy Dance! Juggle Boogie!  Party :squee:Free Avatar - CupTardCake Sun HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Sun Free Avatar - CupTardCake  :squee: Party Boogie!   Juggle Dance! Trophy Airborne 

Have some free Art too, for your Special Day :) (Smile)
 
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Happy Birthday!
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greensam Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday!
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Lionheartssj Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! :party::cake:
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birthdays Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's June 27th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

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Jasperinity Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017
Happy birthday! :D
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SkyfireDragon Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017   Artisan Crafter
Happy Birthday, Jenny! Green Dragon 
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Uiya-namie Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2017  Student General Artist
On my god, thanks for the watch.
I'll read your comic through as soon as I finished school 0_o
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mutekisaru Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Nice works.
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Ranbooby Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I found your webcomic tutorial, and I thought it was very well written and informative. I decided to give you a watch.
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Ashwings Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017
Thank you! :D
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SoniaSG03 Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2017
Hi Jenny! My name is Sonia. I´ve trayed to contacting you by thezombiehunters´s mail but I think you don´t read it. If you don´t mind I would like to talk to you about your agreement in using one of your images as a bookcover. Can you give me a mail to have a private conversation?
Thanks in advance for your attention!
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Jinggo78 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2016
People were stealing your pics. I finally found you. I kept finding people who didn't make what you made. That must be infinitely frustrating. I'm sorry that has to happen to you. I used a site called yandex.com reverse image search to find you. It was the fox fire pic that led me here.
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Ashwings Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2017
Oh! hello! Yes that's me!
Yeah it is frustrating, but ah, whatcha gonna do haha.
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Jinggo78 Featured By Owner May 15, 2017
Yell at them? Well we know that doesn't work, lol.
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Trelock Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sorry for the lateness of this, thanks for the watch! :D

I really like some of your work! c:
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vesssel Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2016
Thanks for the watch! Feel free to check out my Facebook page for more art. :love:
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EmberCL Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi!
thank you so much for the watch!
your artwork is outstanding~
thank you again.
<3
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ElleAP Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thank you so much for the watch!! Undertale SOUL - Red 
your gallery is awesome btw (* u *)
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